Ente vrindavanam
Ennu
Ormakalil ninne thirayugayaanu;
Athinte oru konilirunnu
Njan ninne marakkan shramikkugayum
Hridayavum manassum randaanenno ?
Raathrikalil
Nilaavu vizhungitheerkkunna kaarmeghangal;
Nananja prabhathangal;
Varanda saayahnangal
Eva maathramaanu
Ennente jeevan paguthuedukkunnathu
Enikkum ninakkumidayil
Ananthamaaya akalam.
Engilum
Nanutha viralukal kondu
Neeyente ullu thottunarthumbol
Ninte adrushyamaaya saameepyam
Njaanariyunnu.
Pangu veykkumbol
Shareeram bhoomikkum
Manassu enikkum cherthu vecha
Ninte sooryanethram
Ente aakasam niranju kathugayaanu
Manassu urugiyolikkumbol
Ninte snehathinte niravu
Sirakalil alinju cherunnu
Eppol njaan manassilaakkugayaanu-
Ninne marakkugayennaal mruthiyaanennu
Njaan, nee maathramaanennu
"Layanam"...............Nanditha.
Thursday, January 3, 2008
Sunday, July 1, 2007
Compromise
A peaceful Co-existence of a human being and ants. It didn’t happen overnight; not in one day. It was a gradual acceptance.
The ants had appeared slowly, gradually – ten, twenty, fifty, hundred, thousand……….. They invaded her table, bed cupboardsm window sills, practically the whole of her room. They had the discretion to make it appear s if they were not there at all. But if she picked up some book from her table-there they were, lazily crawling underneath. They lurked silently, peacefully, below the bed sheet, in the crevices between shiny wooden planks-marching single file through the grilles of the window.
She had everything to destroy them-disinfectants, moth balls, kerosene. She even tried to find out where they originated from-hoping to squash the origin, instead of squashing them. But……she had to admit defeat.
When her brain cells were too tired to fight, she accepted their presence, slowly, gradually. Fighting had mad her weak-mind and body. She now preferred truce-she who used to boast in her youth that she always preferred to fight it out “ I never compromise” She re-heard her young image flaunt her trust in a transcient state of self self sufficiency. She had later learned to sigh; and further later not to sigh. So, without sighing she thought that she was no longer younger. And she accepted the ants.
The ants were well-behaved. They never fought with her. They would go about their business in a languid fashion. She sometimes tried to find out what they were up to. She followed them in their march. But they always disappeared into some tiny hole, or a hair line crack on the wall, leaving her totally at a loss. It disturbed her for some mysterious reason she couldn’t fathom.
After the trace she realized that the ants were not a problem by themselves. It was all her attitude that had made her consider them troublesome. She remembered that they had never tried to get into her ears or nose when she was fast asleep. She had only imagined that they would.
Looking at those sluggish little things, dreamily wandering through the floor, her understanding apologized “Sorry for the misunderstand.” she smiled to herself thinking of what the truce, finally, turned out to be co-existence, understanding. Later she wondered whether she wasn’t trying to smooth over the friend-enemy dichotomy, with the loftiest philosophy of understanding. She kept on wondering, often.
And the ants, in their own way, asserted themselves-silently, peacefully.
1998
The ants had appeared slowly, gradually – ten, twenty, fifty, hundred, thousand……….. They invaded her table, bed cupboardsm window sills, practically the whole of her room. They had the discretion to make it appear s if they were not there at all. But if she picked up some book from her table-there they were, lazily crawling underneath. They lurked silently, peacefully, below the bed sheet, in the crevices between shiny wooden planks-marching single file through the grilles of the window.
She had everything to destroy them-disinfectants, moth balls, kerosene. She even tried to find out where they originated from-hoping to squash the origin, instead of squashing them. But……she had to admit defeat.
When her brain cells were too tired to fight, she accepted their presence, slowly, gradually. Fighting had mad her weak-mind and body. She now preferred truce-she who used to boast in her youth that she always preferred to fight it out “ I never compromise” She re-heard her young image flaunt her trust in a transcient state of self self sufficiency. She had later learned to sigh; and further later not to sigh. So, without sighing she thought that she was no longer younger. And she accepted the ants.
The ants were well-behaved. They never fought with her. They would go about their business in a languid fashion. She sometimes tried to find out what they were up to. She followed them in their march. But they always disappeared into some tiny hole, or a hair line crack on the wall, leaving her totally at a loss. It disturbed her for some mysterious reason she couldn’t fathom.
After the trace she realized that the ants were not a problem by themselves. It was all her attitude that had made her consider them troublesome. She remembered that they had never tried to get into her ears or nose when she was fast asleep. She had only imagined that they would.
Looking at those sluggish little things, dreamily wandering through the floor, her understanding apologized “Sorry for the misunderstand.” she smiled to herself thinking of what the truce, finally, turned out to be co-existence, understanding. Later she wondered whether she wasn’t trying to smooth over the friend-enemy dichotomy, with the loftiest philosophy of understanding. She kept on wondering, often.
And the ants, in their own way, asserted themselves-silently, peacefully.
1998
I want everybody to love me
I want everybody to love me
Love me more than
they love any one else.
It’s not very difficult.
You only have to put it
A little effort.
I want to be prima donna
Once that is achieved
I lean back
heavily satisfied.
And then it comes
Satiety.
I feel like running away
From that whole lot of fools
Who can’t do without me
I shout at them
That I no longer need them
Because I have discovered
They are all fragments of my ideal.
I have long since ceased nourishing guilt
Over my mighty selfish heart
I want to give up hope
But the hungers of my mind
Tempt me into newer mistakes
I am fed up of the game
And start thinking
Stupidity is the only way out
I start being stupid
And snugly fit myself
Along side an image
A thousand times removed from reality
Nevertheless retirement has its own
Advantages.
Love me more than
they love any one else.
It’s not very difficult.
You only have to put it
A little effort.
I want to be prima donna
Once that is achieved
I lean back
heavily satisfied.
And then it comes
Satiety.
I feel like running away
From that whole lot of fools
Who can’t do without me
I shout at them
That I no longer need them
Because I have discovered
They are all fragments of my ideal.
I have long since ceased nourishing guilt
Over my mighty selfish heart
I want to give up hope
But the hungers of my mind
Tempt me into newer mistakes
I am fed up of the game
And start thinking
Stupidity is the only way out
I start being stupid
And snugly fit myself
Along side an image
A thousand times removed from reality
Nevertheless retirement has its own
Advantages.
At the sacrificial altar
At the sacrificial altar.
I put down reverentially
Everything that you are.
Parallels.
I escape from you
Sacrificing myself
To get
What you cannot give-
A God
After the appearance of
All your belongings
That are familiar to me
And stop reaching out to me.
I want to be
Free from memories.
Whether it would work out or not
Is a totally different question.
Sometimes I think
I am a fool
But my thoughts never free
With my emotional needs.
Certain tender expressions of the mind
Are fragile.
Need taking care of.
I can’t throw them out of the window
Of my third storey apartment.
So I try not to resent
Doing what I do.
I put down reverentially
Everything that you are.
Parallels.
I escape from you
Sacrificing myself
To get
What you cannot give-
A God
After the appearance of
All your belongings
That are familiar to me
And stop reaching out to me.
I want to be
Free from memories.
Whether it would work out or not
Is a totally different question.
Sometimes I think
I am a fool
But my thoughts never free
With my emotional needs.
Certain tender expressions of the mind
Are fragile.
Need taking care of.
I can’t throw them out of the window
Of my third storey apartment.
So I try not to resent
Doing what I do.
Weal or Woe
Ah, the bear of solitude.
To hell thy clutches sans gratitude
Once, thy embrace how did I Yearn
But only to remain the picture on the urn
While all the world sleeps
Ha! the burning candle of my heart
Lingering down the mountain sleeps
How do you puff and pant
When you creep down to ashes
The moon of me too diminishes
But this qarb of grace, the gift
With which you enveloped
Gives me the power
To remain ever.
To hell thy clutches sans gratitude
Once, thy embrace how did I Yearn
But only to remain the picture on the urn
While all the world sleeps
Ha! the burning candle of my heart
Lingering down the mountain sleeps
How do you puff and pant
When you creep down to ashes
The moon of me too diminishes
But this qarb of grace, the gift
With which you enveloped
Gives me the power
To remain ever.
My mirror has gone mad
My mirror has gone mad.
It throws weird images at me
In the past
It was sensible.
Once an angel
Once a witch
But always
One image at a time.
No
There are silent screams
Thrown at my feet
Like empty oyster shells.
Once I caught
A pretty wine glass
Before it caught my eye.
Later
There were faded violets
Today I was shocked.
It was an egg
Fidgeting in blood
Like a fish out of water.
I swear, it contracted
Like a heart.
Gory, terrifying
It spit out a sperm
and died.
An empty red plastic bag
Horror!
I tremble………
Before I collapse
I throw my mad mirror
Out through the window
Down to the streets.
I killed it.
18 August. 1993
The peak of winter
The peak of winter
Poetry is frozen the world.
I dream of blood.
Blood dripping from my womb
Smearing my dining table
Where I treat my guests;
Leaving marks on paper bits
It evaporates.
The faded stain remain.
It is warm
Stops me from shivering
Stops me from freezing
But it is still winter
And poetry is frozen.
I need a hot hand, a touch
So hot that it I will burn
And set poetry burning.
The ice set ablaze
Dripping scalding drops
Each drop an emerald
Priceless.
The format of love,
An ever-evolving thesis,
The touch
I wait.
-1992 December
Poetry is frozen the world.
I dream of blood.
Blood dripping from my womb
Smearing my dining table
Where I treat my guests;
Leaving marks on paper bits
It evaporates.
The faded stain remain.
It is warm
Stops me from shivering
Stops me from freezing
But it is still winter
And poetry is frozen.
I need a hot hand, a touch
So hot that it I will burn
And set poetry burning.
The ice set ablaze
Dripping scalding drops
Each drop an emerald
Priceless.
The format of love,
An ever-evolving thesis,
The touch
I wait.
-1992 December
My mornings prick me
My mornings prick me
Like an unkissed desire.
The bloom is the only gloom.
I mistake the sunrise,
As in a photograph,
To a bright sunset.
Which ways do I go?
Rise with the sun;
Or sleep with the Moon?
Sleep by the day;
Rise by the night;
Or both interspersed?
Show me a fire
Where I can drop my thoughts
One by one;
And cook my heart
No guests.
The barbecue is strictly for me
Who knows
I might wake up with sunrise
The next morning
-1992 December
Like an unkissed desire.
The bloom is the only gloom.
I mistake the sunrise,
As in a photograph,
To a bright sunset.
Which ways do I go?
Rise with the sun;
Or sleep with the Moon?
Sleep by the day;
Rise by the night;
Or both interspersed?
Show me a fire
Where I can drop my thoughts
One by one;
And cook my heart
No guests.
The barbecue is strictly for me
Who knows
I might wake up with sunrise
The next morning
-1992 December
Earlier there were the roads
Earlier there were the roads
The wheels rolled with us
Clippety-clop, clippety- clop
We trotted along.
Then we started jogging heavily
Later we ran.
It was fun, excitement and adventure.
Suddenly the roads are no more.
The tar melted off the stones
The scattered stones swear vengeance.
Then there is the shock of a gleaming rail
And a whistle of an electric train.
We trot along the naked stones
Run, faster still, gasp
The train runs past us
Knees tremble, we stop, stare, freeze.
The electric train runs past us.
-1992
The wheels rolled with us
Clippety-clop, clippety- clop
We trotted along.
Then we started jogging heavily
Later we ran.
It was fun, excitement and adventure.
Suddenly the roads are no more.
The tar melted off the stones
The scattered stones swear vengeance.
Then there is the shock of a gleaming rail
And a whistle of an electric train.
We trot along the naked stones
Run, faster still, gasp
The train runs past us
Knees tremble, we stop, stare, freeze.
The electric train runs past us.
-1992
Thursday, June 21, 2007
What is that crack on the face ?
What is that crack on the face ?
A burrow ?
Rather a sneaky trench.
You call it a smile ?!
I know
That is amiability.
But why don’t your eyes keep quiet?
Discipline them
Or they get out of control
Why not tear them out ?
Throw them on the rocks
So that they would never sprout.
They are to die with this century.
-1992
A burrow ?
Rather a sneaky trench.
You call it a smile ?!
I know
That is amiability.
But why don’t your eyes keep quiet?
Discipline them
Or they get out of control
Why not tear them out ?
Throw them on the rocks
So that they would never sprout.
They are to die with this century.
-1992
Not all flowers are lilies
Not all flowers are lilies, indeed
The angels of beauty.
And remember
Not all flowers are roses either.
The angels wake up\
When the sun goes down,
While the roses stand his heat
Burning with him.
Given the choice
Whom would you prefer ?
It is not the question of
You body and soul.
I would advice you
To be true to yourself.
-1992
The angels of beauty.
And remember
Not all flowers are roses either.
The angels wake up\
When the sun goes down,
While the roses stand his heat
Burning with him.
Given the choice
Whom would you prefer ?
It is not the question of
You body and soul.
I would advice you
To be true to yourself.
-1992
Neon bulb with a future
Neon bulb with a future
Burning on the other side of the road
On the street,
Cars and bikes sneer at each other.
It is going to be war.
The few, waiting to cross the road
Are totally at a loss.
They look at each other
The look of a fading forget-me-not.
They stay
And walk down the street;
On this side of the road.
-1992
Burning on the other side of the road
On the street,
Cars and bikes sneer at each other.
It is going to be war.
The few, waiting to cross the road
Are totally at a loss.
They look at each other
The look of a fading forget-me-not.
They stay
And walk down the street;
On this side of the road.
-1992
One day
One day
My ears will rain into your heart,
Soaking it,
And would flow out
Drawing white papers in crimson violet.
I will keep on crying
Till the husky murmers of the deep violet,
Rattling the walls of a million hearts,
Answers wordless queries
Of awe-stricken fluttering eyes.
I wouldn’t stop crying
Till the raging sea,
Kissing the dampness off my hear,
Floats me over in heavy music.
One day…..
My tears will rain into your heart
My being shall be the fuel for your burning eyes.
Fire, soft as a lily
With its cool breath,
Shall melt the frost, settled in my consciousness;
And spread over the waters
Setting the deep violet flaming,
And creeping into the eyes
Of the panting multitude
Shall soon melt their frozen consciousness.
-1992
My ears will rain into your heart,
Soaking it,
And would flow out
Drawing white papers in crimson violet.
I will keep on crying
Till the husky murmers of the deep violet,
Rattling the walls of a million hearts,
Answers wordless queries
Of awe-stricken fluttering eyes.
I wouldn’t stop crying
Till the raging sea,
Kissing the dampness off my hear,
Floats me over in heavy music.
One day…..
My tears will rain into your heart
My being shall be the fuel for your burning eyes.
Fire, soft as a lily
With its cool breath,
Shall melt the frost, settled in my consciousness;
And spread over the waters
Setting the deep violet flaming,
And creeping into the eyes
Of the panting multitude
Shall soon melt their frozen consciousness.
-1992
Defeat me, Would you ?
Defeat me, Would you?
One has to rise from the fire
And have burning eyes for that
Your eyes are not even embers
Better forget about that.
And lets talk about reconciliation
Beliefs wont shelter you.
You are not the winner
Nor am i.
Disguisting, to pine away
Letting nobody win.
So, when fights take us nowhere
Lets talk about reconciliation
-1992
One has to rise from the fire
And have burning eyes for that
Your eyes are not even embers
Better forget about that.
And lets talk about reconciliation
Beliefs wont shelter you.
You are not the winner
Nor am i.
Disguisting, to pine away
Letting nobody win.
So, when fights take us nowhere
Lets talk about reconciliation
-1992
It is silence
It is silence
It is peace
Even the sounds suffice.
Music in the air, Music in the mind,
Music in the eyes
You need only to hear.
Rushing, searching, screaming
Shudders all around
Wait! and listen
There’s music in the air,
In the mind, in the eyes….
The burden must be heavy
But doesn’t it caress you?
Peace sinks in
Music in the eyes
Plaintive, overflows.
-1991
It is peace
Even the sounds suffice.
Music in the air, Music in the mind,
Music in the eyes
You need only to hear.
Rushing, searching, screaming
Shudders all around
Wait! and listen
There’s music in the air,
In the mind, in the eyes….
The burden must be heavy
But doesn’t it caress you?
Peace sinks in
Music in the eyes
Plaintive, overflows.
-1991
Why do i feel like crying
Why do I feel like crying
When tears fail me?
What’s the lump in my throat?
I try to spit it out each morning
But, as a mist gets into me
In five different perspectives
Is condensed and stuck in me.
I hear, see and absorb.
Each morning again I wake up
With the fire inside me
That seldom burns
But chokes with its smoke.
My heart, you fail.
And my mind, you laugh.
I am nothing, nobody here.
A prisoner to escape bound.
Blood boiling in to my eyes;
When the hour is come
I shall spit my eyes out.
Till then
I smoke, scatter and dissolve
A prisoner to logic bound
-1990
When tears fail me?
What’s the lump in my throat?
I try to spit it out each morning
But, as a mist gets into me
In five different perspectives
Is condensed and stuck in me.
I hear, see and absorb.
Each morning again I wake up
With the fire inside me
That seldom burns
But chokes with its smoke.
My heart, you fail.
And my mind, you laugh.
I am nothing, nobody here.
A prisoner to escape bound.
Blood boiling in to my eyes;
When the hour is come
I shall spit my eyes out.
Till then
I smoke, scatter and dissolve
A prisoner to logic bound
-1990
How could you plan to die,you fraud
How could you plan to die, you fraud
Without consulting me ?
To beat me ?
I wouldn’t forgive you
Your heart gave way
Little by little
I didn’t consent for the last vein
To break.
It persisted
It had my orders.
When I was away
You spy, you did it!
Another worm.
With that lingeing grin
You shall not burn
I won’t have you rise from the fire
To burn me.
I’ll make a man out of your skeleton-
A man with fine bones-
Try and flee, if you can
Bastard!
I’ll have you still.
-1991
Without consulting me ?
To beat me ?
I wouldn’t forgive you
Your heart gave way
Little by little
I didn’t consent for the last vein
To break.
It persisted
It had my orders.
When I was away
You spy, you did it!
Another worm.
With that lingeing grin
You shall not burn
I won’t have you rise from the fire
To burn me.
I’ll make a man out of your skeleton-
A man with fine bones-
Try and flee, if you can
Bastard!
I’ll have you still.
-1991
For My Grandmother
For My Grandmother
She died young
Her mind crippled
Grey, skin crumpled,
She died young.
Fire in her hair
Embers her eyes
Swaying slides of air…..
That unsympathetic morning
She tucked a blanket around me.
Steadily, no face left
The skull gleam
And no Hamlet persists………
What is left of the toe
I keep as a marker
And note down:
She died young.
-1991
She died young
Her mind crippled
Grey, skin crumpled,
She died young.
Fire in her hair
Embers her eyes
Swaying slides of air…..
That unsympathetic morning
She tucked a blanket around me.
Steadily, no face left
The skull gleam
And no Hamlet persists………
What is left of the toe
I keep as a marker
And note down:
She died young.
-1991
New faces with old eyes
New faces with old eyes
Slow comprehension defiant.
Nerves run out of rhyme
And no dying.
Deep gaspings.
Rutling air
Makes only blank eyes.
Smell of raw earth
Invoke dry fumes
Scattered lazily
From an extinguished fire.
Nothing comes from nothing.
Striving alone remains.
-1991
Slow comprehension defiant.
Nerves run out of rhyme
And no dying.
Deep gaspings.
Rutling air
Makes only blank eyes.
Smell of raw earth
Invoke dry fumes
Scattered lazily
From an extinguished fire.
Nothing comes from nothing.
Striving alone remains.
-1991
Another grim day
Another grim day
The morning glories
Have not opened their eyes.
My mild day, digs up your wrath.
Not that I blame you my lover,
But the open doors tell me
Of something
I wish….. was left unsaid
The morning glories
Have not opened their eyes.
My mild day, digs up your wrath.
Not that I blame you my lover,
But the open doors tell me
Of something
I wish….. was left unsaid
Anemone flowers
Anemone flowers
Dripping blood.
Don’t touch them!
Not even to dig them out.
Let’s raise a fire
I planted them myself
Thinking they were chrysanthemums.
Now the green swallows the rain
To change the blood of her lover
To bloody Anemones,
Venus was mistaken.
-1991
Dripping blood.
Don’t touch them!
Not even to dig them out.
Let’s raise a fire
I planted them myself
Thinking they were chrysanthemums.
Now the green swallows the rain
To change the blood of her lover
To bloody Anemones,
Venus was mistaken.
-1991
No more Asters for me
No more Asters for me
To stink in my flowervase
They are better in mud
Don’t ask me why I plucked them
One simply has to, you see.
You look bewildered my friend,
Don’t pluck at your guitar so hard
It’s your turn now
To go plucking Asters.
-1991
To stink in my flowervase
They are better in mud
Don’t ask me why I plucked them
One simply has to, you see.
You look bewildered my friend,
Don’t pluck at your guitar so hard
It’s your turn now
To go plucking Asters.
-1991
Those dark heads before me never turn back
Those dark heads before me never turn back.
But they reflect the cofusion
Revolting in their brain layers.
The unknowable weaves collages.
Each picture is a question
And they gag me…….
The incomprehensible creeps into my mind
And cataract bulges out of my eyes
When the burning darkness envelopes me
I lose all notions of time.
-1990
But they reflect the cofusion
Revolting in their brain layers.
The unknowable weaves collages.
Each picture is a question
And they gag me…….
The incomprehensible creeps into my mind
And cataract bulges out of my eyes
When the burning darkness envelopes me
I lose all notions of time.
-1990
Diffidence
Diffidence
There is a frog in my room
Throwing its eyes back
It stares at me.
My wellwishers, Hm…..
They say,
He is the Prince of the fairytale
Is he….?
His flat face and rolling eyes
Makes his slimy presence felt.
I kicked him out more than once
But he would always come back.
I loathe him!
Rather I’m afraid of him…….
I want to dishearten him
And he would gladly call him a fool
But his broad chin and closed mouth
Shows his contempt.
I’m afraid
Everything will go wrong…….
-1990
There is a frog in my room
Throwing its eyes back
It stares at me.
My wellwishers, Hm…..
They say,
He is the Prince of the fairytale
Is he….?
His flat face and rolling eyes
Makes his slimy presence felt.
I kicked him out more than once
But he would always come back.
I loathe him!
Rather I’m afraid of him…….
I want to dishearten him
And he would gladly call him a fool
But his broad chin and closed mouth
Shows his contempt.
I’m afraid
Everything will go wrong…….
-1990
It was dripping pearls,from heaven
It was dripping pearls, from heaven
My mother was groaning.
Why ? I wonder.
I was with you.
Looking into your eyes
And finding me there,
My heart leapt in ecstasy.
Soon the drops fell thick
And blurred my,sight
Your face faded away.
I couldn’t weep
But lost my sound
And starting losing my way,
My life and soul.
My mother kept groaning.
Her misery-
I couldn’t sympathise,
But only mope myself
And brood over the day
In the loss of my self
On the past in its way.
I’m now lost and forlorn.
Mother, she still groan………
-1988
My mother was groaning.
Why ? I wonder.
I was with you.
Looking into your eyes
And finding me there,
My heart leapt in ecstasy.
Soon the drops fell thick
And blurred my,sight
Your face faded away.
I couldn’t weep
But lost my sound
And starting losing my way,
My life and soul.
My mother kept groaning.
Her misery-
I couldn’t sympathise,
But only mope myself
And brood over the day
In the loss of my self
On the past in its way.
I’m now lost and forlorn.
Mother, she still groan………
-1988
O Night,how rich and fair art thou !
O Night,how rich and fair art thou !
The eye that devours thy beauty
Feels his soul crammed with manna.
The unpleasant swain in the dark
Feels his mother in thee.
The song thou whistle past the wind
Invites him to lie on thy lap.
Thou sings the lullaby, and take him to sleep
He dreams of beauty and dreams forever.
To inhale the odour of thy abyss
To destroy the sense of helplessness,
O Night! take me to thy depths;
Lull me to sleep
And let me sleep forever.
-1988
The eye that devours thy beauty
Feels his soul crammed with manna.
The unpleasant swain in the dark
Feels his mother in thee.
The song thou whistle past the wind
Invites him to lie on thy lap.
Thou sings the lullaby, and take him to sleep
He dreams of beauty and dreams forever.
To inhale the odour of thy abyss
To destroy the sense of helplessness,
O Night! take me to thy depths;
Lull me to sleep
And let me sleep forever.
-1988
The touch of affection
The touch of affection
The aching need of what I sought
Leaves me out of all the fairs
My mask, too fine and serene,
My smile ugly,words worthless,
The mask is torn to pieces.
Still I wear a self conscious laugh
Facing the world out of its beauty
To frown with disdain.
-1987
The aching need of what I sought
Leaves me out of all the fairs
My mask, too fine and serene,
My smile ugly,words worthless,
The mask is torn to pieces.
Still I wear a self conscious laugh
Facing the world out of its beauty
To frown with disdain.
-1987
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